I have been feeling so disconnected lately. I have such a hard time getting myself to do the work that I want to do. I am letting my anxiety stop me from progressing and I don't want to do that anymore. So, I'm doing this for myself, I just had the idea a few minutes ago and don't know how it's going to work yet. I jump into things sometimes, knowing I won't actually commit to it, but maybe I will this time.
I want to actually go to events and be more connected with the community here. I know if I do it I will feel good and it will work, but I have such a hard time forcing myself to do it. I blame the weather or anxiety and just don't do things. I want to be comfortable being alone in the world. I know I have limited time here and I really want to make the most of it. I have been sewing a lot in the last week. When I'm avoiding the studio I try to find other creative projects to keep me busy. I haven't been able to bring myself to paint.
I think I should make a few goals every week and then check in the next week to reflect and make new goals. I don't know that Friday is the best day to do this always, but the best time to start is now. So let's make some goals for the week.
~ paint something, even if just a background or a mini, just start painting again
~ get a new sketchbook and start doodling
~ talk to people at the Whitney opening on Tuesday